she is no more 'M3'

From the first day we meet i told myself not to continue to play.... but it did not help at 'ALL'

I LOVE HER very very very much!!! I LOVE HER.... the pass me is a jerk i would say myself..... i love u but i'm still going for other girl..... but the answers from all girl when i asked them that question they will tell me..... sorry i'm not the girl you want joel or zheng hong or so whatever... she will continue saying you can get a better girl..... better than me.... well for the pass me i would feel nothing cause i'm still playing.... but now i started to have feelings......

i would apologize to those who i just ask for the sick of having you....... but now i'm not i asked this question and i want a positive answer.... i would say only 3 girls i'm goin after untill i can't concentrate a single thing.... well no mention names here..... my closest friend would know who they are..... and recently i tell myself i got to do better..... i need to set up everything and let her come into my world......

but i failed... from form5 until now i'm only wanted to go after you.... and to plan the rest of my life i'm walking with you.... before that i'm praying to god that if the timing is right... please bless me to have a relationship with 'you' and now i don't think this prayer i going to continue to have it in my prayer list......

i try my best to think all the ideas i have to suprise u when it's your birthday... when that day came i found out that i don't really know you..... i don't know you cannot get close to flowers..... and as a stupid me i brought a rose for you..... and a necklace....... i plan to propose when i gave u the suprise... but i failed ... i didn't get myself ready..... and i wanted to have a closer relationship..... what a foolish me.....

and recently i know that you don't really like food or drink that in-line with beans..... but a 'clever' me gave you a black bean soya.... oh gosh.... *need some help here*... in the same day i still found out that u can't stand the smell when people smoked... [i'm trying to avoid] somemore you cannot take strong fragrance....

how can a boyfriend don't know a single things of yours?? if I'm, i am in serious shit..... sometimes you feel that u treat me bad but what to do i'm willing..... isn't love is part of our sacrifice?? i mean in phisical... like time and money.... but i'm willing how about you?? i have putted you as the most important person thats sitted in my heart... but where am i in your heart?? 1 to 10 where am i?? if u would to ask me this question... i would say you're more than that....

i treat you like how i treat a girlfriend.... i'm trying my best to ..... but it seems that you can't feel it.... behind of it i suffer many.... patient.... patient.... and patients..... i waited but someone jumped my Q.... wherever i am... i think of you.... would u ever think of me?? on the bed before you sleep?? i don't think so.... after i had my good night prayer with the lord i think about my love ones..... you're included .... and u always pop out as the first one.....

the sweet smile that i cannot ever ever ever forget from you.... the cute character that i cannot forget.... the way you talk / the style you talk that i cannot forget.... the emotional face that i cannot forget..... everytime i think about those happy moment it seems to be just a few minute.... but the sads one coming out one by one .... maybe i think too much or i loved you to 'deep' and i can bearly pull myself out.....

in the car i asked u one question... 'do you have a boyfriend now??' i asked..... you answered yes... to be honest my heart broke.... when i would to comfirm..... and u say yes... i'm total lost..... a tears came down form my eye.... and i asked myself again.... why should i drop a tear?? i should wish her to have a life-long relationship right?? i should be happy right?? but eventually i'm not at all..... i wish you will not click in to my blog and view this post..... even i got the chance i missed it... or i don't deserve to have a chance..... everything i would say is too late......

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of
who I am when I am with you.
我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is,
won't make you cry.
沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you
want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with
all they have.
那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and
touches your heart.
一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right
beside them knowing you can't have them.
掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never
know who is falling in love with your smile.
就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person
you may be the world.
在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't
willing to waste their time on you.
不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before
meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the
person, we will know how to be grateful.
可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it
happened.
不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so
what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more
careful about who you trust next time around.
這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are
before you try and know someone else and expect them to
know you.
在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you
least expect them to.
不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
緊記: 所有事也是因果循環的。

You know i've been worrying you all the time.... since when i'll forget you a second of my mind?? if u say i din call you for sometime ... i would want to apologize but every second i'm having you by my side..... I don't know whether you will have me by your side......??

having a car accident is not a very big deal , but have u getting hurt my heart will get pain but lucky... lucky you didn't get any of it . thank god for that !!! From accidents u can get more experience !!! Trust me...

For now i really hope that i can hug you!! by the way i'm always there to listen and help u if u need one..... I won't forget you any single second in my life.... and i always worrying for my love ones..... u are included !!

i hope i'll sooner be yours and you're mine.......

gtg tomorrow class at 8 wake up at 5.30 haiz..... hate college..... make me can't have enough sleep!!!