~The time is gonna come

Well updating this post is a very sad thing....

To those who don't know the news yet.... my grandmother[mom side] had pasted away last Friday... It happend when my auntie called me when my practical exam...

auntie : hey boy , ur grandma pasted away already u know a not??
me : *speechless* & *stunded* i'm having my exam i'll call u later......

when i heard this news... i'm totally lost.... no direction and i'm worrying bout my mother.... she sure will get super upset.... so do i..... i dun knw what to do with my exam i feel like going back home and see her last face..... and i just wanted to hug my mom and try to have her happy.... but i know everything ...... i know that when she's alone at home.... she will think of her.....

when the day the casket is goin out from the house..... i saw tears & i saw sadness.... that undropable tears and the sadness that she had in her heart..... she cry out loud.... the first time i saw my mom cry so hard out and she is weak very very weak.........

i stand behind of her.... but i cannot do anything so do my father...... i won choose to say anything but deep inside me i know she is super super sad......

this death of my grandma come too sudden.... even i cannot believe and accept it..... although i just manage to saw her 3 -5 times a year..... i regret that when she is alive i din go and visit her often..... this 18 year of life i saw her getting older and older.... she start to forget who am i...... when i went back she cannot say who am i?!!

this very day will come.... but i dun know when......

to be honest i din pray to god.... through out this 3 days at my grandma place i din pary except for my food..... i dun knw what to pray for and my mind is blank..... what i know is when my grandma death i know one day this very one day my father side grandma grandpa will also went back to the lord...... not only them but my father , my mother , my auntie , my uncle , my cousin , relatives , friends...... these very day will come soon...... and we hope we dun want to know when.....

this incident came to unexpected..... and too sudden.....

Lord :

when this thing happend... i know a lot of things are going to happend...
so do you.....
i can't take it anymore Lord....
in this two years......
many things happend........
my pet pasted away....
my cousin brother pasted away.....
and now my grandma pasted away...
my mom's back bone get injurd....
but Lord i'm counting on you Lord....
even these things happend Lord...
i know u're with me always....
Lord maybe this is a challege you want me to face or maybe this is the time for them to go back to u......
we don't know so much ....
but only u know everything......
by now please bless those who doesn't know you or haven accept you.....
i'll be praying for them all.... although in this world i dun know all of them.....


brothers and sister in christ i hope u all also will help me to pray for them .... not only for ur non-christian family member or friends but to all the people in this world.....
we don't know when the world end and the second coming of Jesus Christ.....
but we know God is a God that will answer our prayer....

AMEN