Well , I'm a FOOL...

O.k to all my friend who knows me well i guess only 1 of them and he is Kok How..... hehehehe

To be honest when i have a crush on a girl i'll go full blast no metter what......

So when i'm in form 4 i had a crush on a girl .... well no name will be listed on my post........ So don't make out stories......
In class i seldom listen to what teachers are teaching ..... like History , Moral , Akuan I won't even open my ears listening the teachers teaching...... Well i always wrote letters but I dare not to gives the girl that i LOVE last time.... mostly i threw it away....

So college started two days ago....... I had a great......... day in my new college....'TOC' (the otomotive college) With feelings i just go and take my pencil case for new pens and pencils...... so i found a lot of papers in the pencil case..... I'm really curious bout those papers..... basically is some unessecery papers...... but i found 2 very very very stupid letter that I've wrote last time haha....... and 1 is when I cheat in exams i use the paper but sadly still fail haha...... Nvm i just feel like updating the letter and let her read here..... If she manage to log in to my HugeGuy's blog..... NYEK....NYEK.....NYEK.....

o.k it goes like this the first letter........ {with struggling and suffering mind}

I wanted to forget everything about relationship (between me and YOU) but .....

When the time i have my crush on YOU... it keeps reminding me how foolish am i sitting infront of you have a stupid conversation with you , make you scold me , well obviously i still feel happy hehehe don't know why......... BTW I'm a fool that time.....

The love from me to you is really making me emotionally and mentally have a big changes.... It's making me headache at all times when i think of you....... I really can't stop loving you and will not wanted to gave up on you........ At the mean time , i wanted to score well in my exams too..... I guess i still need to make a big scarifice.......

Your image keep floating in my mind...... I really cannot concentrate in my studies..... either my sports..... O.k studies usually to me that time is a small issue... [add on : but now big issue] I just can't stop or even destroy the image of yours in my mind cause i'm not willing to do it......

How can i just let it go.........

*end of the first letter*

o.k this letter i guess can show how foolish am i that time hehehe...... BTW what is DONE... then it's DONE!!!!!!!!

o.k i'm not gonna update my second letter cause is a bit long and it's now 1:30 a.m in the morning i should have some sleep..... hehehe btw for those who read this post i hope you won be as foolish as the 'OLD hugeguy' .......

*updated by the joyful and brand new HugeGuY*

SHE...HER or HER...SHE??

The FIRST and The LAST i can TELL YOU....
I Joel Lee Zheng Hong LOVEs you as the way you are...

*updated by love you always de HugeGuyHONG*

SPM result.......

about the SPM results that had came out 12 of march 2009
me Joel Lee Zheng Hong felt Sad Sad Sad to myself for what result that i took......
i felt sorry to my parents..... friends that have fully support on me.......
although my parents outlook doesn't felt sad but i knw in the inside of them they felt super super sad.... that they invest a son like ME...... a son that only will waste their money and doesn't gave what they expect from me...... i really really felt sorry for them...... but who else to blame??

ME........

when i first took my result..... my mom asked me what result u took ??
i hardly answer her.... cause i know ... i know in me there are already tears....... tears that drop in the inside but not the outside......
well i told her everything what i took what i expect ...... she face to me and smile..... said softly to me..... don;t worries bout the result u've took..... is already done..... u're qualify for some college..... thats enough...... and the most important thing is u my son no sickness and be healthy everyday.... thats what i want...... although we doesn't have a single sen in our family but u live in this would with a healthy body i'll be happy.........
tears keep on droping inside my heart..... the pain is really unsharable......

so i pledge to myself..... college is gonna start soon..... i'll put all my effort to do my best in college and handle all the hard situation......

and all glory belong to jesus the king of kings.......AMEN

*updated by the hugeguy with tears and pain inside his heart*

funny character of HUMAN

Well i need to start up this blog starting when I'm young......

I knew a dude of mine when he is a baby..... until now we known each other for 15 years.......

I hardly update the news in church fast due to my BARU working life..... in Midvalley's Quiksliver , Roxy and Reef.... well they are from the same Boss..... so after a month of work i took 4 days lift for the Camp escape....... o.k besides this even family and friend their news also very hard to get cause no time to chit-chat with them..... so this pal that i have known him for 15 year include this year he had change...... character , emotionally , his handsome look..... well almost everything i guess haha......

So most of his friend come to ma and said.... ehh u knw ahh this pal of your's ahh he change a lot already.... i can't hardly come along with him lah sometimes...... well i kinda shock when i got this NEWS...... so i quickly update myself bout him......

this pal of my he done a very very wrong thing...... so call-ed 'wrong thing' lah....... for your information..... he went for the escape camp...... o.k back to the story...... well the wrong thing that he did i guess most of the girl's friend knew it..... dun mention names in my blog ya.... hehehehe..... well after the pastor talk and he done it....... 'erm i guess i'm also one of them...... [not the same thing as he had done]'

the point i wanted to say is..... human is a very very 'special' "animal" we like to do things that we usually haven try before and we usually want thing to go our own way.... but do things always go on our own ways?? i don't think so......

like the situation my pal did is.... right after the pastor's talk.... girl is sensitive when a guy touches her..... and so this pal of mine he hug a girl that she love and the girl he loves do not walk the way he wanted the girl walked........

well i can say human is very special but indeed we need to knw all ways turn into god's but not human's..... i guess this pal of mine he feel ntg but in him i guess still there are sadness.... well pal up and downs are what we human need to over come.....

basically i also don't knw what i share here in this blog feels stupid and unmeaningful haha..... well for those who read this post and don't understand just ignore haha.....

*updated by the stupid and don't know what he is posting DE hugeguy*

5ss1

sorry for not posting the topic that i said before in the last post but i really like this video cause it bring back all my memories when i'm in my secondary skul .......

SMK SRI SAUJANA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pkJpVrxQkys